I do it every day

“I Do It Every Day”

Tempera on canvas

2024

This painting is about repetition as survival. I was thinking about the invisible emotional rituals people perform every day just to continue functioning. The small internal acts nobody notices. The effort of holding yourself together while the world expects softness, beauty, productivity, emotional availability, and calmness all at once.

The phrase “I Do It Every Day” sounds almost casual, but inside the work it becomes something heavier. It speaks about emotional labor, about resilience that no longer asks for recognition because it has become part of the body itself.

The repeated gestures, colors, and forms inside the painting resemble emotional loops, habits, memories, and daily acts of psychological reconstruction. Not dramatic collapse, but quiet repetition.

This painting is about the strength hidden inside routine.

About the silent complexity of carrying yourself through life again and again without anyone fully understanding how much energy it requires.

“What matters most is how well you walk through the fire.”
— Charles Bukowski

For me, this painting is also part of a series of three works created during a period when meditation, gratitude journaling, and writing down my thoughts and manifestations became daily rituals in my life. I often absorb the things I deeply study or emotionally experience into my artistic language. Earlier it was BaZi and Feng Shui. Later it became meditation, self observation, and the process of understanding myself from within.

At some point I realized that these inner practices were no longer separate from my art. They began influencing my color choices, emotional compositions, and the psychological atmosphere of the paintings themselves. I wanted these works to reflect not only visual emotion, but also the invisible inner processes behind transformation, repetition, emotional discipline, and personal energy.

These three paintings became a way of documenting an internal state rather than illustrating an external story.